“Everything changes”

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I know its really late for me to write about this post.
We got our SPM results on Wednesday.
and guess what?!
I went out for almost 12hours!

woke up 6 in the morning, prepared myself.
Hean Tee fetched me, SueYi, AunWei and OnnSun to meet up with the others at (idk what its called) to have dim sum. haha
after dim sum, straight head to Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Hamid Khan to wait for our results.
but when we reach there, they said that the result will be out on 10.30 sharp.

So, us gang went to ronda the whole school hahaha.
Everyone was so nervous when we take our results.
Yee Hui cried when she told her family about her results. XD
this is what I got for my SPM.



not really good like others, but it was expected.
I was never good in my science subjects, neither is my Sejarah.lol
I got 8 credits, but I passed all of my subjects. which is a really good thing. hahaha

all of the prom committee was suppose to have an outing.
but everyone have different options and decisions.
end up we split into 2 groups.
Hui, Fern and me went to 1st Avenue.
the others went to Sunshine Square for bowling.

went to see the Analogue Kaki shop. they sell lomo stuffs. so nice.
and they have the small camera thingie that I mentioned on my previous posts. that I want to collect.
So adorable!!! but one model cost RM33. D:
someone buy for me please~~~~
hahahaha.

three of us went to Red Box.
this was my first time going to Red Box.
yes, 1st time == lol
was fun!!!
HeanTee, MingKit and PangZhiChuen joined us later on.

6 people all together but we only paid for 5 people if Im not mistaken. haha ;)
reach home around 7pm.

Parents didn't complained about anything. so happy :D
hahahaha

That's all I guess. Photos at Red Box are with MingKit.
might post it if I can get those photos. :)






step2 <3



someone keep on asking me to draw figure.
so here it is.
I tried. it looks retarded. DX

not really detailed. I just sketched, shade, and use tissue to mix.
I don't really know the proper way to do this. LOL







Someone shared this on their blog, and I really like it.
So now I'm gonna share it with you guys.

to those who really love old photos, lomo, vintage.
You will probably love polaroid too.
Most people don't really have the money to own a polaroid or even buy their films as they are really really expensive.

SO, polaDroid is what you guys might want! :)
yes, poladroid.

click for the website


all you have to do is download the software.
I'm using vista, but there wasn't any "for vista"
so I downloaded the "for window xp" software.

After you download it, click on the software on wherever you saved it to INSTALL it.

open the software and this will appear. wait


then this cute little polaroid will appear. note on the right upper corner.


all you have to do is drag the photo that you want to have polaroid effect onto the brownish place and wait.
a polaroid photo will appear along with some sound.
then wait for the photo to dry.
when the photo is done, a samll ribbon will appear.
right click on the photo to locate the jpg photo.
and done!

you got yourself a poladroid photo :)


here are some samples that I did.







hope you like it!












went to Sue's house on Friday 18 March. was there from 8pm till 10pm.
Fern, Tee and AunWei was there too. we talked alot that night, was fun.
everything feels like we are back in school. really missed those moments ♥





and I also went to Queens to join my friends yesterday.
was suppose to go to 1st avenue to hear about the winners announcement for the one academy drawing competition.
but mum was not feeling well and she didn't want to go out of the house. end up whole family have to stay at home.
so i tried asking my dad for permission to join my friends instead :)

Lots of people went for the outing.

Joyce, Onn Sun, Aun Wei, Led Gan, Wilson, Fern, Hui, Tee, Beng.
saw everyone in one day. so happy x)
i'll just upload some photos taken by Led Gan with his 550D.


group photo before AunWei and OnnSun leaves.


step ♥


♥


us on escalator.

keep on using escalator go up go down go up go down. hahahahaha


me and fern at Station 1 ♥


noticed that all the photos don't have Led Gan in them?
the disadvantage of being a photographer! hahahahahahah xDDDDD lmao.



bought a film camera the other day. just for fun.
I want to start collecting cameras. doesn't have to be a camera that can take photos.
I just want to collect the models. like necklace, keychain..etc =)


what i bought, its got a container that should be water prove. but i haven't try it out yet. haha

I found this blog that sells small lomo camera.
MYMINIMO
go check it out! i really want the Package D!!!! :D
who can teach me how to purchase it? pleaseeeeee....



here are some photos that I found throught google.
i want them all! D:



















watched Rango



and I am Number 4



yesterday with family at Queens.
and I end up having a weird and fantasy dream.
I cant say that it was bad but it was kind of fantasy.

all i could remember now is I looked at both of my hands and i felt my hand burning when someone poured some liquid on my hands.
smoke came out but my hand wasn't phsyically hurt at all. i could just feel it burning.
and the liquid was blue in colour..the colour became undescripable when it touched my flesh. it was so dreamy but seem so real. haha
and i woke up from my dream looking at my hands. i felt as if it was real. the burnt feeling and scars.
if i'm not mistaken, i had some kind of tatoo markings on my hand :D
so COOL. xD hahaha



Life is kind of weird don't you agree?
haha

When we're young, we want hugs, we want to be cared, we want to be loved,
we ask for piggy back rides, we get to be carried when we're too tired to walk with our tiny feet. we feel secured in our parents arms.

and now, i bet 90%.
If your parents are capable in carrying you, you'll still be screaming your ass out saying "I'm Gonna Fall! I'm Gonna Fall! Put Me Down! Put Me Down! I said Put Me Down!!!!"
and you'll definately struggle or even freeze for the fear of falling. lmao.

and before i had my driving license, i never cared about the way my dad drives,
now after i've tried driving and knowing the fear.
I get freaked out when my dad speeds up just to cut a car or when another car comes out from another lane and drive into my dad's lane.
If it was me, I'd definately hit the breaks but my dad was still able to drive past it mantaining the speed. I looked at him amazed. lol =)

Maybe I need more practise. Hope i'll get use to it soon. and stand up for myself on the road. HAVE TO OVERCOME THE FEAR SOON!


My piano teacher hires her student to help teach the lower grade students. but she couldn't make it on this coming Sunday.
So with no more option, my teacher find me to ganti her for one day. hahahahaha
what a miracle. lmao. My Piano Stinks and she wants me to teach. I'm so scared weiiii....
i don't want to be the cause of some students failing their exams. D:
anyway, i accepted it. give it a go.
Teacher's paying RM5 per hour. and im gonna be working for 6 hours.
Therefore, I'm gonna get extra RM30 this month. not much but its good =)



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There was this contest organized at there. so I asked myself, Why Not? :)

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i got my P license today =)
can't wait to drive soon with dad beside.
have to learn how to drive auto. lol
hope dad will give me more freedom soon :)



This freaking song keeps repeat in my head.

This is me swallowing my pride, standing infront of you saying I'm sorry for that night.
It turns out freedom means nothing but missing you, wishing i'd realize what i had been doing.

I see alot of photos lately. Everywhere on the net.
Tumblr, Deviantart, blogs, facebooks.

it gives me the need to use my Dslr to shoot photos.
how i wish someone would volunteer to be my model T_T

here are some photos i took in the past and the past few days.
edited them and added my watermark. =)
i want to try outdoor shooting!
Who wants to be my MODEL?! :D

no one =\








oh, and I got my pay for the month of February today =3



went for my JPJ car test today =3

got up early morning around 6.35 a.m
was so nervous the previous night that i end up rolling here and there before i finally doze off.

My driver told me to stand by at 7.30 a.m, but he phone me around 8a.m and asks me to wait for him at the guardhouse.
Went he arrive at my place, the van was packed.
Everyone was a "calon". lol

After i reached Cemerlang, i went to find my number.
which was Sesi 3, numbor 22.

People that i know(ex hamid khan) who went to the same JPJ test (same place) too was
Sue Yi, Onn Sun, Andrew, Alagu and Yong Ken.
but i heard there were others as well, but i didn't saw them and i forgot who were they. lol

Yong Ken was the fastest to end everything, he Passed everything.
and it was just in the morning, damn fast.

Onn Sun and Sue Yi was in the same Sesi. Sesi 1
O.Sun Passed the road, but failed the section inside.
Suezie Passed the section inside, but failed the road.

both of them was telling us(me, alagu, andrew) that they kena girl tester and they keep nag nag nag and very strick.
end up we were all so scared to kena girl. haha

when we were waiting for out turn to do the section inside.
Hill, Side Parking, 3 Pointer.

Alagu went first. She was in Sesi 2. nombor 20.
She passed and went to find Sun and Sue.

So me and andrew waited.
i was number 22, andrew was 20.

When we were waiting, when it was almost our turn.
An indian guy, went for his turn.
and I think he wanted to play with the oil and the clutch.
SO, he pull up his hand brake. and he released clutch while stepping the oil.
end up his car straight move forward and bang the car infront!
the car infront was pushed forward by his car and both cars end up moving forward together.
Everything happened so fast!
and all you heard was
"eeeeeeeee.....Bang! eee....."

The biggest possibility is that the hand brake wasn't pulled up enough.
and he stepped the oil too much so the force pulled the car forward eventho the handbrake tried to hold it in place.

That indian guy was actually quite familiar to me,
he seemed like the guard at my house area.
when i first saw him today at cemerlang, he smiled at me and i also smiled at him.
but i wasn't sure that it was him, cause he wasn't wearing his uniform and it looks weird. hahah

This incident(accident) made me become nervous again weiii...
finally i calmed down and this happens. wtf.
When it was my turn, i kept on looking at the car behind and tell to myself
"you better don't bang me or else...."
i was freaking out!

When i went up the hill, i brake too fast and my tyre didn't enter the yellow line.
So i had to reverse and do it again.
I calmed myself.. and did it. thank god! and went down hill also not bad.
atleast my car didn't move backwards or else i fail.

parking was okay, i made sure my car was in place then i only raise my card.
and 3 pointer was okay. thank god.

as soon as i finish the section inside, it was lunch break.
me, alagu, andrew and onn sun walked all the way to KFC to have our lunch.
onn sun didn't ate, he already ate. lol.

after that waited for our turn to drive on the road with JPJ tester.
We had to wait for a very very long time.
I was lucky today. The 1st new myvi in Cemerlang arrived today.
and they allowed us to use it.
and with luck, i got myvi for my turn!
Not to mention a GUY tester! :D

Myvi damn nice weiii~
not easily mati engine and very smooth.
You won't hear the loud noise of the engine.
everything was smooth.
I went to Jalan C. the highway area. drove quite moderate but the tester keep call me to speed up. scary.
but i don't blame him, he was eager to bring his gf out for dinner.lol
its just my guess, cause i heard him on the phone. =)
i passed the road test by 17/20.

Today is a lucky day for me. So happy~

oh and when i reach home, mum told my that one of the guard asked whether have i finished my test during the afternoon.
So i guess that indian guy WAS my housing area mia guard. hahahaha

better get more sleep today, tomorrow got work.
that's all for today <3



How do you make yourself forget about someone who was once special to you?
it's always hard.
You meet someone, fall in love, have different point of view/opinion, you break up.
and then you tell yourself to never love again until you're say, during college? or when you're "ready".
but then you meet someone who makes you believe, and the cycle goes on and on again.

and everytime it ends, i find myself losing myself more than the others.
what i actually mean is that well, it's always the other half who moves on earlier than me.
i seem to always be the one left behind lost in thin air.
trying to forget, yet keeps end up thinking about it.

tho i might sometimes be the one who makes the decision to end, but in my heart I always still have hope
in the end, the other person moves on earlier than me.
and some even found someone much much better.

its really saddening.
i feel so dumb, betrayed.
like as if everything they once said was all unreal.
maybe relationships weren't meant to be taken seriously.

but when i don't take it seriously, they say that i don't really love them
and then quarrel.
by the time i really think that "he is the one".
everything breaks into pieces, with me left behind all those lies, broken promises. fake.

it's so pathetic. What do you want from me? like seriously. please.

i always find myself trying to forget someone with the same method.
its funny but it works. lol =)

to forget someone, i will always go to "his" facebook page and see "his" stuffs.
abit stalkerish maybe but yeah. lol
the trick is this, i always see whether is he happy or not.
then, if he's got a new gf.
I look at their photos, their love here love there status.
and then i tell myself, "he has moved on, and i will never be the one anymore. we got no fate."
I hurt myself in order to make myself let go.
it always work for me. lol. funny isn't it?
my heart aches everytime and soonner or later it will graduately disappear..
and i'll end up feeling happy for them. =)