“Everything changes”

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How do you make yourself forget about someone who was once special to you?
it's always hard.
You meet someone, fall in love, have different point of view/opinion, you break up.
and then you tell yourself to never love again until you're say, during college? or when you're "ready".
but then you meet someone who makes you believe, and the cycle goes on and on again.

and everytime it ends, i find myself losing myself more than the others.
what i actually mean is that well, it's always the other half who moves on earlier than me.
i seem to always be the one left behind lost in thin air.
trying to forget, yet keeps end up thinking about it.

tho i might sometimes be the one who makes the decision to end, but in my heart I always still have hope
in the end, the other person moves on earlier than me.
and some even found someone much much better.

its really saddening.
i feel so dumb, betrayed.
like as if everything they once said was all unreal.
maybe relationships weren't meant to be taken seriously.

but when i don't take it seriously, they say that i don't really love them
and then quarrel.
by the time i really think that "he is the one".
everything breaks into pieces, with me left behind all those lies, broken promises. fake.

it's so pathetic. What do you want from me? like seriously. please.

i always find myself trying to forget someone with the same method.
its funny but it works. lol =)

to forget someone, i will always go to "his" facebook page and see "his" stuffs.
abit stalkerish maybe but yeah. lol
the trick is this, i always see whether is he happy or not.
then, if he's got a new gf.
I look at their photos, their love here love there status.
and then i tell myself, "he has moved on, and i will never be the one anymore. we got no fate."
I hurt myself in order to make myself let go.
it always work for me. lol. funny isn't it?
my heart aches everytime and soonner or later it will graduately disappear..
and i'll end up feeling happy for them. =)